Random Rumblings

Lines #2

2011-12-01T21:02:00.001+05:30

How can you walk?
Your head held high.
When all you have done,
Is blatantly lie.

All the back-biting,
And plots and make-believe.
You'll lose in the end,
'Cause karma you can't deceive.

Lines #1

2011-11-18T23:22:00.001+05:30

You don't know where I came from,
You don't know where I can go.
I want to tell you,
But I'm not sure if you should know.

Puzzled

2010-03-23T05:17:00.000+05:30

Dunno why am I down,
Wanna turn things around.
Nothing seems to be stopping me,
And yet I feel so bound.

Sword or Knife

2009-06-22T15:47:00.001+05:30

The nuances of the life,
Make a metal, sword or knife.
What you really have in your hand,
Is what you think & where you stand.

Sent from my Windows Mobile handheld.

This Too Will Pass

2009-03-28T03:44:00.000+05:30

For some reasons, this four-word message touches deep in. Whether I’m disturbed, distraught, disappointed, dejected, demoralized, distressed or ditched, the reminder that absolutely everything is subject to evanescence at a point, makes being (put a dis-word) a li’l less discomforting (sorry, couldn’t resist).

I had seen the expression (written in hieratic) in Bhejafry’s room & it stayed on ‘list’ for more than an year (that time I didn’t use a PIM) before materializing

This pic is one of the many I have put in my Future>Home folder in the web cloud. It’s gonna take a different shape some day.

Slumdog Millionaire

2009-03-16T19:26:00.001+05:30

Since everyone around is writing ‘bout this movie and when they are not, they are writing about why this movie should not be written ‘bout, I’ve decided that I’m gonna ignore this ‘topic’ completely.

Technically though, above I’ve written somethin’ ‘bout it (that ‘m not writing ‘bout it). Argh! So complicated!

RandomRanting 2

2009-02-08T21:04:00.003+05:30

I'm standin' by, enjoyin' my lot needed solitude, and this person gushes, "(my name), I couldn't recognize you! What's with this beard? & why are you lookin' so down? Are you gonna become a saint or somethin'?". His eyes mischievous.I gave him a smile (polite, fake, almost forced) tryin' to place him, & more importantly tryin' to recall his name. "Not seen you for a long time, where had you been?", I finally managed (banalities). "Was in Kolkata for such-and such thing", relocatin' stuff to Pune". That was a lead, he was probably a friend's friend, he was probably a beggar & was gonna ask me for alms. He was probably mistakin' me for someone else...but then, he knew my name, he knew what I looked like without beard & he had seen me in better times... "You seem to be goin' somewhere, don't let me stop you", I managed, again (these banalities are a boon). "Will see you around, best of luck!" he chirped, probably doped. Luck? For what? I thought while I still tried to put a name to it.

I like drivin' as much I detest it. For once there is splurge of woman drivers which make me extra-cautious when I spot one. They drive like they are doped (everyone else seems to be doped these days), will not do anythin' sane (drivin' or otherwise) & you have no chance against them even if they bang their shitbox into yours (with all the men-turned-hero against the now poor-guy-turned-villain).

And then are these phone booths, who have mastered the art of talkin' while drivin', the phone stuck between their shoulder & head... it doesn't matter if their vehicles are outta control, wobblin' or even gonna fall. The conversation should stay intact. That's more important! Its okay to hit those cow-buffalo people who don't stick to side & cross the road as if they are aimin' to get hit...they probably deserve it anyway. And me like an idiot I gave up even smokin' while drivin' because I thought even if I could handle it safely, it wasn't safe enough. I am plain incompetent.

I ran into a cop the other day when I was not wearin' a helmet with Propane. I like the full face helmets & I didn't have one that time. WCS, I thought, they'd fine me. I've my license, vehicle registration papers, insurance. Cool! Wait I didn't have money. So I made a sorry face, told them that I had the helmet, I had just forgotten to put it on & we were students (this excuse could work either way). He said the fine (or rather a paid voucher which entitled to drive without a helmet for one day) would help me remember it next time. Touché I thought & I asked him the directions for the nearest ATM. Comin' back he wrote out a receipt (I wouldn't have it other way), asked for my name & politely "Mr.(my name again) please sign here". No court-appearance. No confiscation of vehicle. No abuses. Neat.

Mahindra Xylo was a disappointment. It seemed like a mash up of Scorpio & SX4. Seemed bulky & was powered with m-Eagle. They had m-Hawk in Scorpio, why couldn't they continue it? Eagle? Why not m-Pigeon or m-Crow or somethin'? Are we not neglectin' the other birds of the ecosystem. Don't they know how it must feel. They should protest by shittin' all over the car. I would do that if I was a birdie. NGOs should demand that all bird's name to be put on the car to make it truly eco-friendly.

I can't afford a broadband connection & there is this chap who has a wireless router, close enough so my laptop (Liz) catches its signals. I curse him him everyday. I've not seen him. I dunno who he is. But he comes online for a very short time, probably once a day. Why can't he just leave it ON the whole goddamn time. Doesn't he realize that other people, especially me, a very inconvenienced by this. He's probably too dumb to realize it, just like he's too dumb not to encrypt the connection. Even if I'm away, I have Gigs of torrents which leech whatever & whenever possible. Jugaad (Improvisation) you see...

Amul Ad

2008-11-23T16:08:00.002+05:30

Found this in October 1992 edition of Reader's digest.

And I did laugh...

Cursed Addiction

2008-11-05T13:14:00.001+05:30

Today I had ten cigarettes & three colas before 1PM. What a brilliant way to start a day!

No it isn't. Its a very dreadful way to start a day. Joining Mountain Dew addict anonymous doesn't seem to be a likely option. My previous attempts have failed. There is a high cost implication too. Together they are setting me back by more than 13K an year. That's more than if I got a Zune upgrade with an Altec Lansing im414 combined and I would still have money to buy a pair of Sennheiser.

I don't like either of them, not anymore atleast. It's rather the (bad) habit that drives me. I hope that I get around it and I hope that you hope so too.

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Sent using Wi-Fi enabled handheld.

Mobile blog

2008-06-27T15:56:00.002+05:30

Now GPRS activated mobile phones can access 'Random Rumblings' at

www.praxferraris.mofuse.mobi

Its a mobile optimized site which has the mobile viewable content available in a very convenient manner.

Needless to say, it will continue to be available at www.praxferraris.blogspot.com

See ya there

Incomplete

2008-05-21T18:51:00.005+05:30

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go.

I was just lookin' for this!

2008-04-17T17:27:00.000+05:30

Absolut Intoxication

2008-04-08T19:37:00.001+05:30

Intoxication
Originally uploaded by neha shah

I dunno what I liked more. The green gradient.... (really loved it) the bottle...or the arrangement.

Grande!

Clicked by Megabitez

AskMen.com - Top 99 Women 2008 Edition

2008-03-02T11:28:00.002+05:30

Get this widget!

Top 99 Most desirable Women of 2008

I so totally disagree. Angelina #35

Ashwarya # 27

And no, you don't figure in there...

Adhypikamon by Metalhead

2008-02-14T16:28:00.001+05:30

Deeksha Banned Video - Teachers

What an iDEA!

Welcome to the ITC Infotech Family!

2008-01-26T14:21:00.000+05:30

There is somethin' very horribly wrong with this job letter coverpage ( Rest is marked confidential). Put your thinkin' cap and guess what?

How Prax got lucky, got canny, and got a 30GB Microsoft Zune

2008-01-06T12:27:00.001+05:30

Last month, which was incidentally the last month of the year also, I was scrougin' for humans with a mobile connection, two bucks balance, two minutes of time, and two ounce of patience.

G.i.f.t.m.a.t.e., a P.a.y.m.a.t.e. (names written to avoid any possible trace searches back to this page, not like it matters) associate company was distributin' free vouchers for Rs. 250 to anyone who'd try mobile payment service, initally offered to only Citibank, and now offered to ABN-AMRO, Corporation and "Some other" bank.

What I did was chanced upon this idea of collectin' them for it was no tough job, and later discovered, not so easy either. I was makin' a cool 2.5K-3K a day. Thats 75K-90K a month, holy crap! The catch, I couldn't cash it, just could shop online incl my favourites: Indiaplaza.in, Futurebazaar.com, Indiatimes.com and Rediff Shopping.

That was my average for the 5 days I did this thing, buggin' everyone to (receive and) send the SMS. If I'd have updated the people's mobile nos. with the my address book, it'd have a overhaul, but that time I was too involved to think 'bout it.

First I wanted to buy an Aspire 5310 WXMI, but by the time the offer ended, and it just ended, there was no last date, I ended up with, to use the term, quater of a million. I got myself Microsoft Zune 30GB, and rest intend to convert to liquid cash by my makin' online payments for some friends.

Statistics

No. of people I contacted	Close to 90
People who wanted to and were able to "gift" me the voucher.	48%
People who didn't want to and still gifted me the voucher.	4%
People who kept the voucher for themselves, dorks!	4%
People who wanted to but couldn't due to no-balance, sms illiterate, hopelessly careless, etc. reasons	7%
People who just gave their mobile tellin' "Do it yourself"	10%
People who refused to give their no. to me.	4%, (all girls, bloggers.)
Successful transfers	62%

Thank you! For those who did, couldn't or didn't, you've helped in different ways.

P.S. I feel like blabbin' 'bout MS Zune, hell!

Meebo

2007-12-20T20:01:00.001+05:30

happy holidays from meebo family
Originally uploaded by meebo

This post is dedicated to cool folks at Meebo, who have made my life easier...and maybe yours. They don't do a lot, but, do a lot in what they do.

Cheers!

MotoSmart

2007-11-27T16:32:00.000+05:30

Allow me to blab, for I need to, and I’ve not been able to find anyone who can listen to the whole thing and yet not interrupt with a “Enough!”, right when I’m at the first tenth of the whole thing.

Its got everything, except no, I can’t track the George Bush’s uncensored poses or go back in time.

For a li’l while, the light ambient sensor was a wonderful toy-in-a-toy. I’d cover the sensor and the keypad ‘d light up like magic, for the kids. They finally after a long discussion concluded that there was no “trick” as the eldest of all was claimin’….the bad part… they wanted me flip close the phone without touchin’ it.

The three hundred songs and contacts took a whole bloody hour to transfer. Yahoo’s new autosync, coupled with activesync is a breeze to use.

There is this book readin’ function which goes on standby mode after five minutes and locks itself, the amount of time, the eyes are supposed to be used causin’ lesser strain.

The MSN Messenger is more or less useless, for I’m an avid Yahoo! User, and even lesser so lately. FireFox for mobile is not developed yet, by the time it’ll be, I’ll probably switch to HTC S 710. my next Object ‘d Desire. I am able to sync my AOL India mail (the professional id)...blah blah..............blah!

There is this Voice Commander function, which drives my bro mad, for he can’t seem to dictate any “order” to her, without repeatin’ it a dozen times trying different voices, accents and words.

I give this wicked grin,
And say.
“Play Coldplay”,

And so she does.

She also craps with “….battery….critically low”, or that you’ve 7 missed calls, and goes on tellin’ the whole thing. Please note that I didn’t ask for it, she didn’t ask that I asked for it or not, the bitch!

TailFish2

2007-10-04T11:42:00.000+05:30

Once upon a time....that's how I wanted to start my next post and I don't care if it looks odd..

So comin' back

Once upon a time... there were four GoldFishes Golly, Goldie, Gluda and Gennet.

Golly and Gennet passed away (either that or eaten by my bro) when I had been outta town.

Gluda had some kinda gastric (or gastronomic?) trouble, for when I returned I found him eager to throw up (I was later told Father tried treatin' him). It died and was buried in the kitchen dustbin.

Goldie is still here...she's become like a dog, standin' on its bottom when I come to give it food. Actually she floats, but it looks like that Tom&Jerry fish doin' those antics.. comin' over the surface for the appetizer, the main course....take its time and then come back for dessert, even though its the same goddamn food ;-) Its fat, but honestly, I can't recall if she looked thinner any given day. She gets better meals than I do (three times a day, when I wake up, 3 o clock and midnight) and every now and then she acts as if its white shark, or blue whale or somethin'...looks very fishy!

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RandomRanting

2007-10-03T13:40:00.001+05:30

Its been a bad four-quarters, I've lost three mobile phones, Two U3 flash drives and two SD cards, one bein' yesterday, its adaptor on right, incl a lotta head. I think I've started likin' HP iPaq 512
With it went contacts, a fistful of notes, and blogs which I couldn't post, Maximum Delhite, Lajawab Nawabs, TailFish2, Cat-mate, Cousin and Cuisine, Viva de Violence and others I can't possibly recall.
With it went a lotta peace of mind, like really a hell lot not to mention monetary loss.
I discovered that i love macro-photography. And keep shootin' stuff, at three o clock night.
Found Sonia Gandhi hotter than Sharon Stone at the UN general assembly.
Quitely celebrated when India lost the recent match, and wondered the reaction of media, had they lost the Twenty-20 also. Lack of experienced players was the headline I thought I'd see.
Wondered as why it was celebrated, with new trend all news channel showin' their plush offices, and almost muttered to myself, they are actin' as if they 've won the worldcup, and realized how weird it sounded.
Tried findin' out that distinct perfume which made me feel delirious. Since it was very faint, I'd stop breathin' and breathe in again, so I could get another whiff.
Ate somethin' thinkin' it was chicken nuggets, and loved it even better, now I'm tryin' to find out what its called.
Made and canceled trips to New Delhi (again, I think I love the city), Chennai, B'lore and Pune.
I've gotta backache from sleepin' endlessly, if you're to believe that.

PF2007 (8)
Originally uploaded by Prax Ferraris

Ringxiety

2007-09-20T10:45:00.000+05:30

My condition I found was documented at Wikepedia Ringxiety and TOI, Kolkata edition. I dunno if it rings good or bad...!?!?!

The pic is one of the best self-portrait shots...look at the effect of the sky and the halo around my hair... narcissistic as much I may sound...but hell...its a good pic..and no I didn't edit it if you thought I had patience do as such...

Pro Account

2007-09-16T11:15:00.001+05:30

Whoooo! I got a FlickR PRO account!

Of course I didn't pay anythin' for it!

Collage

2007-08-06T18:44:00.000+05:30

Ami made this collage...he doesn't miss a chance to tell that his Sony Ericsson is better than any Nokia any given time...heck!

Another five

2007-07-27T15:26:00.000+05:30

1.THUMBOCITIS
A condition arisin' from excess usage of thumbs for operatin' mobiles messagin' (bigtime!) and openin' cholormints so much so that touchin' the nails become catastrophic. Thumbocitic adj

2. D-BLOG
Blogs in the blog-o-sphere havin' between 3-12 posts. A group of blogs started by enthustiastics and orphaned by time. Origin from my recent stint with Crap Chemistry. d stands for dead.

3. ARTIFICAL PATIENCE
The branch of non-freudian shit that deals with generatin' enormous amounts of patience and tacklin' it creatively. Occurs when all computers, one and alike seems slow and illogical. Often found in animal tryin' to tame a computer while it ends up the other way around.

4. NULLINED (pronounced na-lined)
Made inefficient by stripping off all essentials. Like the way Nokia Care and the PSU's operate. Efficiency is 1 per billion instances...

5. HIPPOED
Exhaust or get tired through no use or doin' nothin', absolutely.

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One Step Closer

2007-07-06T08:57:00.001+05:30

bliss
Originally uploaded by bubuchia.

I cannot take this anymore
Sayin' everythin' I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance

Less I hear the less you'll say
You'll find that out anyway

Everythin' you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense

Nothin' seems to go away
Over and over again

Life in U3

2007-04-28T15:50:00.000+05:30

I'm hugely dependant on one thing, My U3 Cruzer.... In the small pockety (the one you hardly use, in your jeans, and then since sometimes I even sleep in them, its the most convenient thing on earth, well, more or less) lies the most powerful external application storage unit on earth.

Its equipped enough that you can't touch a darn thing inside without my permission. The firewall is better than Chicken Fiery and can give, or rather gives all the major industry honcos a nice kick!

The integrated launch access, and portable applications along with huge GB storage is all I need.Now I hardly do anythin' (Not like I did anythin' anyway, anyways), One password (I'm privacy frantic if nothin' else) and I have the access to my Virtual life, and its pretty big jungle outta there!

Now, if only I could plug it in my head :-(

Its Rockin'

2007-04-12T07:59:00.000+05:30

Energetic, Vibrant, Euphoric!

Ellavabawd

2007-04-05T08:55:00.001+05:30

All Saints Cathedral
Originally uploaded by Gates.

Religion is beyond me, and goin' to ruins, places of historic interest is a major bore...however this is wuddyacallit, Aesthetic feast.
I'm not expected to go inside, am I? Hopeless hopefuls!

Beautiful City. There are actual big elegant bungalows outta there, not like the ones in B'lore where you have a 6' x 4' garden and a portico-cum-parkin' lot.

The telecoms sector is a bliss, you have the wonderful Hutch and Innovative Idea, havin' an array of best connection plans. The only other place I saw this was Pune.

Come to think of it, I remember Idea was a JV between Birla group, AT&T and Tata, but isn't Tata a rival, how is it okay to hold interest in rival company??

The people are warm and friendly, the rick guy who knows 'bout the Train routes down to details to the history of the city, includin' the reminiscent of the No-Indians-Zone in Pre-independence Era.

Bawdy Good!

The Indian Wall had a great Fall

2007-03-30T09:13:00.000+05:30

India didn't get into the Super Eights (Or is it super Sixes? And what's so super 'bout them anyway?) Indian marketin' scenario took a jolt, spendin' millions (its crores but I'm too lazy to check its technical authencity) on campaigns centered on these players.

I saw Tendulkar in a Reliance ad, does that mean that mighty Bharti AirTel didn't renew his contract. Most companies, TVS, PEPSI (big time), Tata, etc are now promotin' their bollywood counterpart, for they are afraid that the loosin' team will give it a bad brand image.

Greg Chapell should be careful, for he might be killed (and we 'dnt be surprised after that Woolmer incident). I dunno him, but hell, I think most people know him from the crap media feeds them.
Dravid is under scrutiny.... much to subtle, aloof in the field, lacks motivational skills-blah-blah blah...just some time ago, he was supposed to be the best captain India had.
Tendulkar, the one who got India on the global map, is now, too old and not fit for playin'.

Funny though, I think Australians perform well because they take it lightly and don't give much shit to what media says. In fact, hardly anyone is even bothered in the Land of Oz.

Its India, where they pray you, pray for you, and then give a tight kick. And 'm sure there's gonna be action replay for this, again and again.

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Color Color!

2007-03-04T20:04:00.000+05:30

Holi
Originally uploaded by Normando.

5 things I've learnt on this Holi:

5. The best way to get yourself all drenched is tell them that you are not playin' or somethin' like that, and wham, you are colored head to toe. And no don't try reverse psychology, because if ya tell them to go ahead they'll gladly do so..Heck!

4. When those cute-lookin'-li'l children ask what your favourite color is, never say Green, for that love stained color shows on your face, esp brows and ears, and in my case on extra-sensitive-can't-tolerate-nothin' nose, for good time.

3. No use of your backup mobile, you might as well throw it in the nearest bin. The inbox gets full and the battery gets drained in a jiff. Yes, that means I lost my phone again for the nth time.

2. Stay away from those female rogues who keep darin' those children "Unko rang lagane mein dar lagta hai kya?" And tell every other person, tell ya what, I think you look a lot better like this or for that matter, Jesus H. Christ, these colors have absoultely no effect on you, you all are scary as ever.... big grin

1. The best part is the evening, when you get to eat, and eat and eat...whoooooo!

What the hell!

2006-12-10T14:13:00.000+05:30

Whoa, this is funny, first eat up your competitions' market, and next eat up the competition itself. I wonder if they've got Western Digital on their platter next!

Nokia launches Wibree! I wonder its gonna give competition to Bluetooth, WiFi, ZigBree and wireless USB.

B'lore is proposed to WiMax, the second city in the whole world after Taeipe (did I get that spellin' right?). But then its govt. and its gonna take some hell lotta time. Probably it'll be outdated by the time it comes this way.

Gates hasn't got a laptop yet...sigh! I'm a certified logizomechanomaniac!

Revisited 2

2006-12-10T13:46:00.000+05:30

2006 is comin' to an end, and at what a lovely note...

5. I get my DL.
In this country corruption is more efficient than govt. for that matter, most of the things are most efficient than govt. Not only it took a jiff, but I even got a call when it was ready. My super-cool laminated DL which serves as signature proof, add. proof and ID proof. Oh yes, it permits me to drive a coupla vehicles also.. no trucks, sigh!

4. I get to control my financial sphere.
Oui, I do. From the personalized checkbook to MasterCard to Mutual fund houses which refer to me as "Dear valued investor". Just wonderin' when the hell do I become a millionaire.

3. Windows Vista is released.
Comin' up next, delayed till Feb 2007, and hell, I might as well buy a laptop next year. You can't miss it, its copied most of the stuff Apple has ;-)

2. I will be 18.
Now I can legally get into adult rated movies, not like anyone stopped me before from Dhoom 2 to Casino Royale. Now I can legally do this...legally do that...blah blah, the list goes on.

1. I get out of my ultra-sucky college.
The most wonderful of all, the effects, now minimizin', boy 'm so glad I got outta that shitpit...the place..people...everythin' irks me when I think 'bout it.

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How much?

2006-11-18T10:08:00.000+05:30

Nooooo
Originally uploaded by kayak1977.

How much does it take to have a point of view?

How much to defend it?

How much does it take to look the other way?

To squeeze every moment for what its worth?

How much does it take to promise yourself that you'll live life on your own terms?

How much does it take to keep your promise?

Project TailFish

2006-11-02T09:43:00.000+05:30

When I got this lovely Fishbowl (which's been on my head for a long time), The lightin' effect with the room light was very disappointin'. So I set upon settin' up my own, blueprint of which I laid out while havin' my dinner.

1. I need a lightin' system.
2. There is no way I can drill a nail in the wall hang this light because of its vertical orientation.
3. Though I'm bit of a sadist, I don't think I want my fish to be electrocuted by any chance.
4. Though I'm a li'l bit more of a sadist, I 'dn't like any harm to one a half-k-antiglare-light.
5. All settin's will be temporary capable of relocatin' in a minute's notice.
6. That the light shall not fall even if the table is moved accidently.

It took a total time of one-and-half hours (okay I admit, I was on phone most of the time while doin' this). The effect was worth it. Its soothin' to eyes.

P.S. I think those fishes have somethin' goin' on between them, so I'll put a coupla more so that they make a mess outta their relationship.
P.S. 2 I'm li'l bit more than li'l bit more of sadist I last mentioned.

Do U-NO?

2006-09-25T21:37:00.000+05:30

Ultimate Neuro-stress buster, it puts your mind off the Crap of life like nothin else. Simple, yet got twists more profound in Sidney Sheldon novels.

What 'm really curious is why is it called UNO? Is it word, greek-latino, or an acronym, or worse still a portmanteau...!

It should be made compulsory to write all this in product information and spare us (okay, maybe only me) the insane curiosity. Maybe i should try my hand on RTI, but then they might accuse me of breakin some pseudo-CIA ring...

I'll spare them, i dont have time. I'm too lazy, oops, busy for this deserving pursuit of paramount importance... Damnation!

Revisited

2006-08-18T16:27:00.000+05:30

I was eagerly waiting for 2006. 5 reasons why...

5. I get my DL.
Hell, its easier to learn both car and bike six time over than to get a driver's license in this country. I think I'll apply for CPL (commerical pilot license) and 'd not be surprised if I get it before the DL itself.

4. I get to control my financial sphere.
Like hell I'll... I've got no money, so how in the world 'm gonna control it. After I get outta this cafe, 'm gonna end up with a zilch!

3. Windows Vista is released.
Let's see, its supposed to..but then I don't have a comp... $@#%

2. I will be 18.
Its funny, but its not makin' a lotta difference. Yes, 'm formally an adult, that just means toleratin' more bullshit! and not sulk 'bout it.

1. I get out of my ultra-sucky college.
This one 'm not so sure. Agreed the faculty was control freak, but I like two three of them. The canteen sucked bigtime, but it had the best finger chips on Sat evening and Mountain Dew most of the time, very handy. the rules were crappy, but it was nice findin' your way thru it.... okay enough!

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Coast to coast

2006-07-11T12:43:00.000+05:30

Of all the things that makes me groan,
Studyin' is the one I hate the most.
If I had an island of my own,
There'd be no textbooks, coast to coast.

The shrouded curse

2006-07-06T00:02:00.000+05:30

If ya had to look back on your life, what 'd you REMEMBER?
The promotion? The performance bonus?
The plaque in the conference room?

It doesnt take supreme intelligence to know what REALLY matters.

And yet, we do li'l besides lookin in the distance and sigh. Wouldn't it be tragic to REALIZE it too late? That we didnt see the trap. That we didnt RECOGNIZE that two words that are the biggest curse of humanity-
"Maybe someday"

Uncanny resemblance

2006-06-16T09:54:00.000+05:30

Imagine my disbelief, when I found out that one of my frequently used Maxims, "To forgive once is ordinary, to forgive twice is extraordinary, but a third time is foolish!" bore an uncanny resemblance to the word I stumbled upon.

Ilunga, voted as the world's most untranslable word, from a language spoken in Congo which designates the type of people willing to forgive any abuse for the first time, to tolerate it a second time, but never a third."

And here I was thinkin' all this while that it was original. The degrees of separation, everythin' is already been thought of.. (sighs)

The return of Bloodhounds

2006-06-09T14:26:00.000+05:30

News headline Feb 03, 2012. Today IIT, Bangalore was opened, continuin' the presitigious IIT tradition, with a whoppin' 7.5% seats for General category.

Politics doesn' interest me one bit, and I'd not have bothered writin' this down, had it not affected my chances of gettin' seats in a good college.

Rhetorically, reservations for the high class people were frowned upon by everyone. Just changin' the ground rules by makin' it against the general citizens and givin' it a fancy tag, that its for the upliftment of the backward classes, is discrimination none the less and should be scrapped away, once and for all.

One who gets a seat by the aid of their denomination of birth at any of the elite institutions, isn't worthy of it. Previously I used to look upon a SC/ST student with sympathy. No more, now I see them the people who are snatchin' bread (and butter) of normal people like me.

How tough is it to understand that every part of society is important and neccessary, that people with poor socio-economic background play role as important as the forward ones, and that they cannot be done without.

Government should keep in mind, that their role in education is that of a watchdog, directin' the right way, and not the bloodhounds, because then there will be blood, lot of blood.

From the eyes of an outsider

2006-05-26T18:42:00.000+05:30

When you feel like,
All your strength has gone.
But your reasonin' says,
You must still carry on.

When no one's close enough,
to kiss the tears off your eyes.
You can take it, you can face it,
After all guys don't cry.

There's no miracle,
No magic carpet.
You must stand,
Back on your feet.

Your dreams are,
A touch away.
And you are tired of,
This worldly deceit.

After all was lost,
You were left on your own.
Remained a burnin' scar,
Never to be shown.

Won the hearts of many,
Pages of past torn.
Yet at the corner of your world,
You stand alone.

Lookin' from the eyes of an outsider,
I see the world hustlin' by you.
Darin' to unbelong, carryin' just,
the faded memories and the sky, insanely blue.

God bless him!

2006-05-21T15:31:00.000+05:30

Jesus holy christ. "You know my roll no.??????"

"Yes, I had called up Sridhar to find it, its 8xxxxx isn't it?"

What the hell "You even remember it?"

"I've already tried findin' it out half a dozen times, don't worry I'll not give it to anyone."

I said goodbye and left, I shouldn't have been surprised he found it out if not from me, one thing I've learnt is to find a way, instead of dwellin' to the problem, get a goddamn solution. He called up the fancy princy to get it, knowin' well that I was reluctant, and wouldn't be givin' it. He knows that academics is somethin' I'm always reluctant to discuss, and maybe considered my weak point, not many over there except to hoarse attitude I've for love and shit like that (there you see how hoarse it is).

He's my uncle, maternal one, who is the relatively the person I like the most in my family. Also, the person the livin' person, I admire the most. Not often he was the one of which I'm the result what I'm now, directly of indirectly, and his home is the most I feel like my home, relatively again.

This post is dedicated to him.

Over years, I've heard from him, and heeded to a hell lotta stuff, even when I pretend that I don't. I just don't like admittin' it probably that I'm receptive to his suggestions, for people who know me, know, I'm usually not. He's the most practical guy in the family, and probably the only one who suggests me goin' for movie when its ok, gives money at a short notice when I need it without unneccessary questions, and doesn't mind me watchin' TV or usin' internet in the late hours of night, In short, no bullshit.

One thing I really love is the twinkle he has in his eyes when he is in good mood, and his face is flooded with geniune affection and smile. Hats off to him!

The dwell in solutions and not problems was somethin' I learnt from him, besides a lot other stuff... real life, streetwise, just the way I look a things. I'm indebted to him, for now, and for a lot time, only I dont' know how I'll ever payback. Cant write all stuff here... i'm too lazy for that.

God Bless him! from an Aethist that too

Close encounter with death

2006-05-18T14:36:00.000+05:30

"Fuck!!!" That was the word which came to my head.

Place: Banerghatta road, near Accenture, Bangalore.

Scenario: I was comin' back home, by bus. Just as soon as I got down, from the back door, and makin' my way outta crowd so that i could cross the road behind the bus, a bloody truck, comes hurtlin' towards me, or the bus rather... i push myself as back as I can and whaaaaaam......the truck, drivin' at 60kph drives into the bus.

I move away, as soon as I can, not intendin' to obstruct some brave people climb up the truck to rescue the driver. Someone asked me, somethin' in kannada, i just nodded and left.

Nothin' for me, just my already hopeless arm which gets tired playin' a shooter game at the Leisure zone got twisted badly...its painin' yes, but since I can type this I don't think anythin' is broken.

BhejaFry, remember us talkin' 'bout the obituary on your blog and me tellin' maybe mine will come soon, not written by me of course...I was kiddin' I didn't know, my obituary's gonnna come up so sooon.

I just shudder at the thought thinkin' what 'd have been the case had the truck come a coupla seconds later...would have found my photo somewhere in newspaper along with deeksha's name, right up

Universal language

2006-04-26T19:07:00.000+05:30

Ever wondered how is it that you know exactly what the other person thinks? Or what kinda person he is? or somethin' inside you that tells you a rough lifestyle story of a person without even sayin' a single word? and what's more, it turns out to be true?

Have you?
No, think again, have you?
No, really try thinkin' for once, have you?

I dunno if this theory already exists, but welcome to the Cosmic language theory.

Based on the fact that there is exchange of data between two humans without use of your vocal cords. That what you communicate consciously has already been communicated unconsciously and you will not consciously realize it. That the prime functional organ is not your buccal cavity or your ears but your eyes. That you are connected to the person your eyes meet.

I dunno why, but just tryin' to read this language, the very effort of tryin', makes a lot of difference. Ask yourself, haven't you wanted sometimes, that someone should just read your brain for words do no justice to the intangible reality? Or someone just did that? how was that?

Roughly an week ago, i was standin' on roadside, just then a very old woman caught my hand, she looked at me. I waited for her to say somethin'. She didn't. Roughly ten secs, I waited and yet nothin' (its very funny you see, its not all that comfy I assure you) Probably she was disabled. But for some reasons, I understood, she wanted me to help her cross the road.

I helped her cross it, and came back to where I was. I asked how stupid could I get, what if she didn't really wanned to and yet, I made her cross the road? This is very funny, I told myself, and yet, inside was certain that even I'd laugh out even on Messiah if he said that I was wrong.

The only thing I wonder is why is there an uncomfortable feelin' that I'm not part of it, but merely an outlander lookin' at it. That things are goin' to happen, as if I have already seen this movie half a dozen times. That you know the end, and worse, you don't like it.

Sometimes, there are things we just know, we just know its there, no reasonin' at all can make complete justice, its written somewhere in this universe, you just read it.

Muktub, its written, just read it. The eclat of the sacrosanstity will make you stop believin' in coincidences.

Similar exprience?

Road to nowhere

2006-04-12T16:34:00.000+05:30

My room
Originally uploaded by Gates.

Funny thing this last week. After givin'my room owner the notice stipulatin' 1 month within which I shall leave my lovely room and sooner, say goodbye to this city.

She was all sweet tellin' that it was nice havin' me over there, that I'm a very good guy and shall do well in life. That I needed to see a doc since 've been coughin' every night, for she dare not brought up the smokin'thing.

Started packin' bigtime, sealin' off personal stuff and noticin' that probably they will stay so for a very long time. Callin' up various people and fixin' up rendezvous for I'll not be able to meet them in comin' time. (you should look at the look of disbelief on my maid's face when she came in next day).

Most of anythin' I desparately wanna change my mobile and more importantly the no. once move out for it still keeps me tagged to this part.

Incidentally, I started cleanin' off my mail box and my online photo collection also. Archivin' personal mails, so they may possibly be never opened. Deletin' contacts (9, highest no. in a single week). puttin' commas and full stop in relationships. And shit like that.

Felt nauseous at whole stuff for most of them brought memories, good and more often bad. But had to do it, a man has to do what a man has to do.

Takin' the road nowhere, me and myself.

Amen!

Lovely moon

2006-04-12T15:43:00.000+05:30

City Moon Ground
Originally uploaded by holy.

Switchin' off the phone,
Turned, I opened the door.
After a bout of cough,
Lookin' up, starin' the lovely moon.

I'll not think 'bout her,
Lest I swoon.
Mea Culpa?
You tell me, o lovely moon.

Livin' on cigarettes,
Turnin' into a sick prune.
I gotta do somethin' 'bout it,
Edible you? lovely moon.

I'm tired of this place,
Where's my lagoon?
I wanna go somewhere.
Comin' na, lovely moon.

I'm fine, I gotta be,
Shall put life in this ruin.
Don't need no Messiah, never,
For with me is lovely moon.

Am I staunch?
Or am I one goon?
I'm what I am,
Don't believe me? ask lovely moon.

Try snatchin' my sky away,
Its gonna stay, even today.
I can start from the start,
What say? lovely moon.

DNA

2006-04-03T08:44:00.000+05:30

DNA
Originally uploaded by Gates.

DNA happen to feature my blog in its specials page... the only thing' I regret is for completely wrong topic, 'm hardly interested in cricket.

At http://www.dnaindia.com/specials/blog06.htm

Up down, NEXT!

2006-03-20T20:28:00.000+05:30

For reasons not very known to me, cricket never interested me. My knowledge, or rather the lack of it was even more infuriated by the craze hoverin' around.

However recently, the mass jeerin' of Sachin irritated the hell outta me. I'm not a fan of him, heck 'm not a fan of anyone. I was irritated at the way the people (Is it just the Indians or the humans in universal perspective) act.

There was a time when Sourav Ganguly was on the top. God was worshipped for his success, and the whole nation roared when he scored the winnin' sixes. But then, he was caught up, caught up by other humans, for reasons I dunno nor I cared for. His brands - Hero Honda, Pepsi, Tata Indicom and a couple of others hid behind the bushes hopin' no one 'd remember that he endorsed them.

Comin' next was Sachin Tendulkar, the short guy with long list of records, and needless to mention endorsements (again!). He was crowned like a prince of England (or since he is short, Napoleon of France). Gifted a Ferrari, wow! called by Don Bradman (wasn't he?, and excuse me if the name is wrong), appreciated by the President of the neighbourin' country (easy guess who) and endorsement packages enough to fill a buffaloe's stomach. The pride of the nation. I know a person who changed his biscuit brand because of him!

And now its Rahul Dravid, the Hutch guy, also endorsin' Pepsi, Reebok, Bank of Baroda, Britannia, Castrol and a couple others. He's said to be the best captain India had in last few years and best walkin' wall batsman in the whole world. Whole India seems to be crazy 'bout him. The guy with a smile stuck to his face like a jelly belly, humble and polite, sweet, simply amazin'. Whatever!

He's different, you'd say. So were all the others. He plays game for the love of it. Tell me one batsman who said he played for the endorsements.

Personally, I've nothin' against him. I like him as a person, however my point is how long before he'd be pulled back to earth. The funny thin' is all the above batsman flew very high, and they did fall like a 747 'd didn't they.

The question is not if but when he'd be pulled by his teeth.

Irrespective, isn't cricket supposed to be a game?

Akademi-a'

2006-02-22T18:55:00.000+05:30

Prashant, aren't you sayin' somethin'?, asked the principal. Sure, ladies and gentleman, up yours! No sir, I'm not scheduled to deliver anythin'. Anythin', no not that also.

Grad day. No mixed feelin's, gettin' on my nerves day, photo sessions with people, gettin' hugged by people whom I spoke less than ten words in whole two years, tears by guys, all crocs, others take a li'l more time, havin' pathetic dinner and I didn't get the dessert also.

Here is the speech which I thought I will deliver but didn't because I was totally fucked up the whole week...

As a stand over here, somehow 'm confused whether to be happy or to be happy or to cry. For leavin' this place is a total feelin' of both joy (big pause....) and sorrow.

As a partin' message, my fellowmen, I'd like to tell a few things I wrote with the pencil of practicality...

While preparin' yourself to take on the world, always remember you are not dressed properly for the day until you wear a nice lingerie healthy smile. Transversin' the goddamn path of struggle, be confident of yourself and always speck to yourself that " others might be great, but I'm greater I'm not bad:. This will teach you to be considerate, kind and lovin' human being besides helphin' you grow wiser and learn the harsh realities of life. Keep in mind that money is not God, but is no less than God either, but goodness and holiness are...

Down the line, make new friends, but retain old ones too, for the happiest miser on the earth is the man who saves up every friend he can make. also for real friends are the ones to bounce things off when the world closes in. Besides a true friend can make all your cares melt away with the touch of a hand, or a smile, and with a calm reassurance make everythin' brighter and life always seems more shitty worthwhile.

Never equate success with money for success is to laugh often, and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of the children, to a earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friendships. (pause.). Look at the whole goddamn crowd.

To appreciate beauty or rather beautiful woman, to find the best fault in others and to leave the world in a better shit place, to know that even one life has breathed his last breath easier because you lived got fucked.

What else can my heart desire than may you all grow up with years to achieve the best things in life, to reflect at times the light of your scare goodness and to be a light yourself, to illuminate the world with your youthfulness and love.

I hope you all tall in your life, for that will only be your truest gift to our Alma Mater.

Soon the pics started flowin' in along with the posts on fellow blogmates. NightFox's covered the whole thing while posts of CompleteBhejaFry's and Shady's 'bout me touched my heart.

I remember replyin' to mail of a class mate "You know what, I'm really scared. I 'm so used to hardship, and various kinda adversities, emotional and mental, that once I leave this place, I hope I don't dry up. Now thats gonna be one hell of an anticlimax."

God knows what's up ahead...one thing I know, I'll not miss this place... Never.

Related entries-
Ten things I have learnt at the camp.
New word coined
Fucked up
No-life
"A college with a difference"

A woman is...

2006-02-12T09:37:00.000+05:30

An angel of truth and a dream of fiction,
A woman is a bundle of contradiction,
She's afraid of a wasp, will scream at a mouse,
But will tackle a stranger alone in the house.

Sour as vinegar, sweet as a rose,
She'll kiss you one minute, then turn up her nose,
She'll win you in rage, enchant you in silk,
She'll be stronger than brandy, milder than milk,

At times she'll be vengeful, merry and sad,
She'll hate you like poison, and love you like mad.

Amen!

Gates' three laws of Humanity

2006-01-26T20:29:00.000+05:30

If you are a geek, like everyone is, I'm sure you must have heard of Asimov's Three Laws of Robotics -

A robot may not injure a human being, or, through inaction, allow a human being to come to harm.
A robot must obey the orders given it by human beings except where such orders would conflict with the First Law.
A robot must protect its own existence as long as such protection does not conflict with the First or Second Law.

Here are my three laws-

Gates will protect self and interests surroundin' it, not allowin' any other human being to do any harm by all means, action or inaction, rational or irrational to the possible extent. Principles are sine qua non and hold true in all circumstances. Other human's interests are purely seconday, and so are other humans.
It will mind its own business, and will not cause harm to and on another human's expense as far as it doesn't conflict with the First Law.
It will help other humans with whom it doesn't have conflict of interest as far as they do not break the eleventh commandment (*For people who don't know, eleventh commandment says- Thy shall not try bullshiting me) or conflict with the First and the second law.

Its perfectly co - incidental that its comin' out at same time as ArZ00n's rip off of Newton's laws.

What say?

Great Ocean Drive

2006-01-22T10:19:00.000+05:30

Great Ocean Drive
Originally uploaded by Gates.

Serene, calm and exquisite beauty. Some of the words that come to my mind when I see this peaceful picture clicked by my beloved uncle.

With love for you as fillin'

2006-01-17T10:08:00.000+05:30

I could give ya a heart,
Moulded outta clay.
To express everythin'
I wanna say.

I could give ya a heart,
Cut from sweet smellin' paper.
To write eternally yours,
My love will never taper.

I could give ya a heart,
Blown from delicate glass.
To remind you its pure,
Everytime you walked pass.

I could give you a heart,
Melted in gold.
To solidify brilliance,
Of what our future holds.

I could give ya a heart,
Formed from chocolate sweet.
To give you a feelin'
That life is complete.

I could give ya a heart,
Made of so many things.
Instead, I shall give ya mine,

With love for you as its fillin'

Yes, the photo is lovely. I will make it clear. I'm not answerin' any question regardin' who is the girl, or anythin' near it.

Mixed Blessings

2006-01-15T10:19:00.000+05:30

My leg's achin' ,
My hand's shakin'.
And inside,
My heart's breakin'.

Standin' before,
The reflection of me.
I dunno why,
There's nothin' I see.

There're so many things around,
Things I should do.
I don't,
Becuase I don't want to.

When it hits my consciousness,
How immense my possibilites are.
That I can touch the sky,
And catch a shootin' start.

Instead of feelin' happy,
I feel much worse.
Every blessin' I ignore,
Turns into a overhelmin' curse.

2006-01-08T15:02:00.000+05:30

HAVE YOU EVER…
1. Kissed your cousin: No. Don't intend to either.
2. Pictured your crush naked: Pictured? Nope.
3. Skipped school: Often. I hate my school.
4. Broken someone’s heart: Dunno, Ok, I guess...
5. Cried when someone died: No.
6. Wanted someone you knew you couldn’t have: Not really.
7. Broke a bone: Been lucky, no.
8. Done something embarrassing: Yeah, many times.
9. Lied: No, I don't lie, he he.

WHICH IS [BETTER]…
10. Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
11. Sprite or 7UP: Mountain Dew, please.
12. Girls or Guys: Err...I refuse to answer this question on the grounds of being incriminated
13. Flowers or Candy: Munch
14. Scruff or Clean shaved: Clean shaved, obviously.
15. Blondes or Brunettes: Irrespective.
16. Tea or Coffee: Coffee, though it still doesn't wake me up.
17. Tall or Short: Duh. Who cares?
18. Trousers or Skirts: Without any of them.
19. Night or Day: Night, My performance is "optimal".

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX…
20. What do you notice first: I often don't. Eyes.
21. Like Being Spanked: No.
22. Worst Question For Him/Her to ask: So many of them. "What happened to you? Why are you not fine?". "What are you thinkin'?". "Why did you do that?"...

LAST TIME YOU…
23. Showered: Today mornin'.
24. Stepped outside: Just now, back from the fucked up place.
25. Had Sex: No comments.

ABOUT YOU…
26. Ever been Engaged/ Married: No. Don't intend to either.
27. Your Good luck charm: Don't believe in luck.
28. Person You Hate Most: I hate or i don't . There is no discrimination.
29. Best Thing That Has Happened Recently: Can't recall.
30. Picture on your desktop: Bliss, by Microsoft.
31. Color: Green, black and titanium.
32. Movies: Comedy
33. Artist or band: MLTR, Pink Floyd, and stuff.
34. Cars: Want one, yes. Not very expensive. A Honda Accord will be just fine.
35. Ice Cream: Hot chocolate fudge, and butterscotch.
36. Alcoholic Drink: Tried. Liked it. Disliked it. Stopped.
37. Food: I do that almost everyday. I hate eatin' alone.

WHO…
38. Makes you laugh the most: Balle and Buddy, he he (she's gonna kill me if she sees this.)
39. Makes you smile: A lot of them.
40. Can make you feel better: No one, literally.
41. Has a crush on you: Dunno.
42. Would you be if you could choose:Don't care. Myself.
43. Gives you a funny feeling when you see them: Many of them, esp the eminent Faculty.

DO YOU EVER…
44. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone all night: No. I sleep.
45. Save MSN conversations: Nope.
46. Save E-mails: they are automatically saved.
47. Forwarded secret e-mails: Don't think so.
48. Wish you were someone else: Nah.
49. Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex: Not a chance.
50. Wear perfume: Yes, more on deos, quite a few of them.
51. Laugh a lot: I try.
52. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time:No, not yet.

HAVE YOU…
53. Fallen for your best friend? No comments.
54. Made out with JUST a friend? what does that mean?
55. Kissed two people in the same day? Yes.
56. Had sex with two different people in the same day? Definitely a no.
57. Been Rejected? Never proposed.
58. Been In Love? Dunno.
59. Been In Lust? Huh?
60. Used Someone? No, thats not like me.
61. Been Used? Don't think so.
62. Dumped Someone? Yep.
63. Been Cheated On? Dunno.
64. Back Doored It? Huh? whats that?
65. Done Something You Regret? Many.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON…
66. You Touched? My friend.…
67. You Talked To? Balle.
68. You Tickled? name deleted.
69. You Instant Messaged? Critics.
70. You Kicked? My friend, this time a different one. If I give the name, he'll kick back, now.
71. You Yelled At? Don't intend to give the name.
72. You Dreamed About? Quite a crowd there.
73. Who Text Messaged You?Poo.
74. Who Broke Your Heart? Spare me.
75. Who Told You They Loved You? Really, I said, spare me.

DO YOU…
76. Color Your Hair? I would like to, brown streaks.
77. Have Tattoos? No, don't wan to either.
78. Have Piercings? Not at all.
79. Own A Webcam? No.
80. Own A Thong? What do you mean?
81. Own More Than 10 Pairs Of Shoes? Never. Not so rich you see.
82. Speak A Language Besides English? Hindi.
83. Buy Designer? Not really.
84. Ever Get Off The Damn Computer? Think so. Only because, I don't own one.

HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU…
85. Stolen Anything? Yes, a munch from Fabmall and a happy dent to prove that security camera is crappy.
86. Smoke? Yes. Intend to give up.
87. Schizophrenic? No. Hopefully.
88. Obsessive? Dunno
89. Bipolar? Sort of
90. Compulsive? No.
91. Panic? No. Quite calm
92. Anxiety? Yes. I agree.
93. Stressed? A lot. I hate admittin' this.
94. Glad This Quiz Is Over? Yes, how dumb can some questions get.

Tagged: NightFox

Letter to dunno-who

2005-12-27T16:20:00.000+05:30

To: Dunno-who@hopefullythisplanet.com

Subject: Confused

Arrright. I am sure its all natural to get confused at this junction. But what the hell, I don't even have an idea what I'm confused about.

One, the ability, or the scope is not a good motivation enough to go for somethin'.

Yes, I might be capable of becomin' and gettin' into engineerin'. But what the heck, I am not interested in it. As simple as that. Its got scope yes, and technical jobs do pay, but, again, I'm simply not interested. Else its gonna end up into nightmare, this time a four-year one, with no way out. What am I gonna do then? Like it is now. Science doesn't interest me one bit, for one reason or the other. And its draggin' and I hate it, this way.

Another thing, I have an idea of what doesn't interest me. The bigger problem is I have no clue what really interests me. And no, I don't have one of those wacko soundin' academic interest people around me seem to have - wildlife, airforce, surgeon, pilot, architect, lawyer, psychologist. No I seem to have absolutely got no way, none which I can see.

Except, yes, business-entrepreneurship. That creates an interest. I like it. I like people. I like gettin' most out of them, makin' most use out of there differences, understandin' what affects the motion and stuff like that. And readin' stuff like that. But thats it, I can't seem to able to put the rest of interest in words. Is that enough? I did score a 24/30 in Forbes Born-Ent. test. And the last page said, "so what are you waitin' for? Start raisin' capital". I know, I shouldn't let that get into my head, it might turn out to be a catastrophe. But I am interested, if nothin' else.

And what are the chances that I succeed in it? But then, what are the chances that I succeed in anythin'. Its all about takin' the good ones and avoidin' the bad ones, isn't it?

Would I take the risk?

FYI,
Please don't reply,
Gates

So what am I up to? Am I just cribbin'. Is it that I just don't want to study? Have I lost the ability to pursue any interest, rational or irrational, academically? Is it plain mockery of time or is it something genuine? Did all what I tried tellin' was crap? What am I gonna do about it? Should I just leave all this, go home and open my high school text book, hopin' everythin' falls into place?

Confusin', what is real?

2005-12-24T12:17:00.000+05:30

Crawlin' in my skin,
These wounds, they will not heal.
Fear is how I fall,
Confusing, what is real?

There’s somethin' inside me that pulls beneath the surface,
Consumin', confusin'.
This lack of self-control I fear is never endin',
Controllin', I can’t seem.

Without a sense of confidence I’m convinced,
There’s just too much pressure to take.
To find myself again, my walls are closin' in,
I’ve felt this way before, so insecure.

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me,
Distractin', reactin'.
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection,

It’s hauntin' how I can’t seem.

Pinky Pug

2005-12-21T20:16:00.000+05:30

I can't believe they did that. How could they commit such a fiasco.

"Hutch turns its logo color to PINK". Pink? Pink! What the #$@&.

I was a Hutch customer till last June 19. And wouldn't have changed for nuts, had I not lost Emily. Imagine, I chose it over SRK's AirTel. (This causes a sudden change in me, of how I miss Emily, I'm cryin', err.. almost. All those moments spent with her. Oh. :-( )

Why? Why would they ever take such a bold step. And pink its no ordinary color. Its the most contriversial color, after blue (Or other way, he he). Its pinky, girly, absolutely feminine and torture to eyes.

And it doesn't go with the brand. Imagine Rahul Dravid, the great grand brand ambassador of Hutch draped in pink shirt and a pink trousers (And even the unders, if he is paid for it).

Or for that matter, a Honda Accord in Pink color. Imagine how would that look.

If anyone gets to know about why are they tryin' to commit suicide like this, just lemme know.

Rahul in pink, glee...

Ten things I have learnt at The Camp

2005-11-24T13:58:00.000+05:30

1. Resist the temptation to say "Oui, you do". When a teacher asks a funny question, like "Do I look funny to you?"

2. Not to say the truth when you are in shit, unless you are a die-hard pig and want a whole tank of it on you fathomable part of your body, also called head.

3. Always check if there are no teachers and girls in the toilet before you start peeing, lest they come in without their clothes.

4. Not generalize the truth like "Girls are dumb". Well they are, but just don't tell that in public. Try it once over here and you will realize why.

5. Mute the colorful words. Well say it aloud all right, yeah, and keep it muted. You don't want Hitler to carry them out, do you?

6. Come to school on time, if you are too late, you will miss the breakfast, and then, what's the use of comin'.

7. Mother nature is a bitch. Don't be surprised if you are punished not to enter the class and the door bangs on your face.

8. And if you were lucky enough to out-stand, relish it. Becuase its even worse to sit inside.

9. With those emminent expert suckers, callin' themselves faculty, its imminent that they are tryin' to pour their failure frustation on you. Don't let them know that they are your lovely bete-noir.

10. To understand that your rights and lefts are not valid. No one comes and tells "You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can be used against you. You can hire an attroney. If you can't afford one, state will hire one for you. I understand that you don't understand why we are fuckin' you. But you must understand that its important that by the Memorendum of Understandin' you signed, I enjoy doin' it. Don't you realize you paid for it. I am givin' you real value for money".

Dream Stalkin'

2005-11-24T13:26:00.000+05:30

Disclaimer: If you happen to dream that your girlfriend was with another of your girlfriend, then I am not responsible for it. Yes, I had absolutely no hand it.

For a couple of months this has become my pet fetish. More often than not, I get up late in the night, grab my Scribblo and jot down all the key words, people and action in fast paced illegible scribble. Strange?

It works, it tells what my already troubled body is sub consciously trouble about. What are the pressin' issues and sometimes some warnings, the nightmares.

A couple of them had snakes, fluroscent green ones and sparkin' diamond like eyes. Inumerable of them and me locked in a room. Yeah, that was real bad, takin' in account my not so good rapport with those "cute lookin creatures".

Then there was one with me drivin' a Volvo. That's why this job tops the list on my Alternative Jobs(c) list.

Jeez, it is a little spooky.

Yikes!

My life, rated

2005-11-07T19:42:00.000+05:30

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	4.8
Mind:	4.4
Body:	6.1
Spirit:	4.5
Friends/Family:	2.3
Love:	2.1
Finance:	4.5
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Dunno what to make of it. I have no bloody idea of where I'm headed, besides at this precise moment, to my bed. Damnation!!!!

New word coined

2005-11-02T01:33:00.000+05:30

I'm confuxed.

Which isn't a new state of being for me, but one I am getting quite tired of experiencing on a regular basis.

Since it's my word, or at least - it is now - re-purposed for my own use, the equivalent of intellectually beating you up and stealing your hot chocolate fudge money - Allow me to formally define it. I might as well patent it. I will charge every person who uses this word.

Main Entry: conÂ·fux
Function: transitive verb
Inflected Form(s): conÂ·fuxed; conÂ·fuxÂ·ing
Etymology: back-formation from Middle English confused perplexed, from Middle French confus, from Latin confusus, past participle of confundere, from my over-use of word fuck.

Meaning
1 Confused and fucked up. 2. Very confused and fucked up 3. Studying at Geeksha

What do you need?

2005-10-29T17:51:00.000+05:30

Hey, check this. Just goto Google, and type "[you name] needs" (in inverted commas, yes) and see your top answers..

Look at mine,
1.Gates needs to brush up on his Harry Potter (never read anyone of them, probably i do).
2.Gates needs to call Hector Santos (who is he? is it even a he?).
3.Gates needs more money (I wholesomely agree with it).
4.Gates needs your $$$$ (lets replace that with $$$$$$$$$$$$$).
5.Gates needs an Enemy of the Day the way you and I need water(no, thanks, i have already asked for a lot).

You may use your nicknames, make it case-sensitive and omit the repeated/ no-sense results. Try and tell me yours.

The truth about lies

2005-10-27T16:33:00.000+05:30

I had always been more fascinated by deception than I have been with truth. The underlying certainity of truth is prosaic. But it takes stature both to lie, and to understand that the person in front of you is lying.

Innumerable number of times, I have seen people lying, to fellow human. And it has always caught my imprudent attention. I don't remember objectin' it. I see with admiration people camoflougin' the truth in their own characterstic subtle, yet apparent ways.

Its another form, pretension, where people live lie instead of just speakin' is not all that funny, becuase probably its justified to an extent. Humans have always wanted to want what they didn' have.

And then, there is distortion, where you speak truth, but not all of it, that's even wonderful, and nasty.

"No mask like open truth to cover lies,
As to go naked is the best disguise."

Hot Chocolate Fudge Magnum

2005-09-27T17:53:00.000+05:30

The ultimate thing on earth

Four scoops of Vanilla icecream
Two portions of (really) hot chocolate
A tablespoon of crushed peanuts
Me

Couldn't think of a better combination.

Just incidentally, I have lost craze for this thingy also. I hope I am not ill.

Green Frost

2005-09-26T17:52:00.000+05:30

I wonder what shall I do,
About this.
Everything is perfect, yet,
there is something amiss.

I'm alive,
Walking and talking.
Yet at the back of the head,
something is knocking.

Am I missing someone,
Am I missing something.
Or is it,
I'm fussing over nothin'.

Feeling empty inside,
Completely lost.
Its snowing, its cold,
I can't remove this frost.

Date: September 15, 2005
Time: Organic chemistry.

Fucked up

2005-09-26T17:28:00.000+05:30

It’s a fucked up world
And a fucked up place
Everybody’s judged
by their fucked up face.

Fucked up dreams
and fucked up life.
Wanna kill everyone
With a fucked up knife.

Life at the camp. I hate it, I hate every bit of it.

Jhonny Bravo
The new character. Inorganic shit. Speaks so slow that you would need to record and fast fwd it to hear it properly. Ask the stupidiest question from what he hasn't even taught. And when you don't answer it, he gives that yellow teeth equipped frown, and his (eye) balls pop out.

Father de' melo.
My love for life. Latest, he divides the class, creates a little shit around trying to get them to go against me. My last conversation...

Setup : The camp, near the stairs. After a Modern physics test.
"So, did you crack the paper?"
"Yeah, all the way."
"Really? Cracked it huh" with a yellow smile.
"Yes, I definitely did"

Fartman 2
Totally frustated, I put my head down. And indelibrately sleep.
"Get up"
"Get up"
I get up, lost of what's happening.
"What happened?"
"Absolutely nothing", I said, under my breath.
"I mean, whats this, a joke????"
"Well, almost", audible enough for people around to hear it.
"Stand up. I want to see your face".
"That you can see, even when I'm sittin' ", under my breath this time. I stand for three minutes, him admiring me, and probably cooking up fetishes. Bell rings.

Related entries:
College with a difference

Should I stay?

2005-09-22T17:33:00.000+05:30

Sometimes I think,
Everytime I blink.
Something changes around,
not making slightest sound.

Its air,
Wind, zephyr, breeze
They'll be there,
Till my life cease.

Its sights near,
Warm, scary, hurried.
They'll be there,
Till I'm buried.

Its people near,
Affectionate, cold, ruthless.
They'll be there,
Till I'm breathless.

Dunno what to do,
Dunno what to say.
Shall I stay?
Or throw my life away?

Date: September 21, 2005
Time: Maths Exam. (Free period)

Star and the Thames

2005-09-19T09:28:00.000+05:30

"So whats the decision?", I asked,
As i eyed a star far away.
"No", anyone would have guessed,
Who cared a fuck anyway.

But on top of that,
He accused me of playin' games.
I was familiar with it,
As much as I'm with river Thames.

I continued my jog, like everyday,
Ran six, instead of usual three.
I sang curses all along the way,
I cooled down to a certain degree.

While eating dinner, later that night,
Tears came to my eyes.
Was I crying?
Or was it because of spice?

Date : July 26, 2005

Written just around the time when I shifted, staying alone and lost my phone. There couldn't be a worst timing. I remember I had got so frustated, arriving home and finding not a human in near vicinity. And people around me never understood it. "Emotions" and "Human needs" gene, something absent in my family.

Onerously Maturescent

2005-09-11T20:18:00.000+05:30

Sometimes I wish, how nice it would have been a psycho-case (seriously).

One of those people who didn't know what real world looked like, maybe eccentric and preferrably misanthropic. One of those who had no desires and expectations from life, who wouldn't be asked what they wanted to become, who wouldn't be ashamed of not able to sew their shirt buttons, or be crazy about hot choco fudge, who were just lost in their own world.

I have seen some of them, and can feel the secret desire at the back of the head. I can't say my life is bad or even boring, but I don't enjoy it, or probably I do and refusing to admit it.

Wish things could be simpler. You never know, probably I would have cribbed even if it would have been too simple. Its got a little boring. I wonder how are other people's...

Holy smokes

2005-09-05T17:04:00.000+05:30

Just before the starting of the movie:

"Statutory warning: Smoking cigarette is injurious to health".

It was a stupid thing. In fact, it was the stupid thing.What has the movie gotta do with smoking? Anything at all?

And if it was issued in any kind of public interest, I still wonder who is gonna say, "Oh dear, see that, they have opened my eyes. I never read that warning on packs. I am gonna stop smokin' ".

Stupid,
Plain stupid,
Just bloody plain stupid.

No-life

2005-08-28T14:22:00.000+05:30

Surrounded by the barbed wall,
In the middle of nowhere, there is a place small.
From out, it looks like the toilet to virgin Mary,
Inside, this place would make even Hitler scary.

There are handful of teachers,
Who double-up as preachers.
They tell us how to “lead” the life,
Sometimes, feel like castrating them with a knife.

For the record, there are 91 students,
Some are lively, while others are just mundane.
In one way or the other, they are distorted,
Broken, lost, they are needed to be escorted.

There are some moments, which will touch your heart,
While others would taste like a stupid rum tart.
There are some people, whose life starts in this realm,
While for some others, its just a bad dream.

Its just a bad dream,
Its just a bad dream.

Author: Gates
Date: August 26, 2005
Time: English Period
Official disturbing moron: Dead Body

Facts of life

2005-08-28T14:13:00.000+05:30

1. Nobody dies a virgin, life fucks everyone.
2. Newton's gravity is all bullshit, basically earth sucks.
3. Don't drink water, fishes have sex in it.

English, Anglais, Angrezi

2005-08-19T17:02:00.000+05:30

"I answered questions only from the first chapter", I said
"Questions? Questions!!"
"Thats what I said"
"No, its called questions not questions"

It took a moment before I realized what she was talkin about. She was pointing out that the pronounciation of question is kwe-stion and kwesh-tion. I was irritated but was too lazy to argue.

Its so buggin to see people correctin others pronounciation. Why can't they get it straight that same word can be pronounced in different accepted manners. All of them are equally right.

Sked-ule or sched-ule (For Schedule)
Maa-ch or mac (For Mach)
On-velope or En-velope (For envelope)

All of them are correct. Feel like tellin them "Mind your own blood accent and pronounciation. Haven't you got a better thing to do. Go get a life".

The Theory of Relativity

2005-08-13T18:43:00.000+05:30

I dunno if its by any chance related to the one proposed by E=mc2 guy. But I am great fan of my way of Theory of Relativity.

According to it. Everything in the world is relative. Everything affects everything else. And this is no philosophical bullshit. Peace is the state of mind of you accept this theory.

Everyone is rich and everyone is poor. Everyone is beautiful and everyone is ugly. Everyone is superior and inferior at the same time. Everything is good and bad. Everything is expensive and cheap. Everything is useful and useless.

All at the same time. It all depends the way you see it (and the way you don't).

London blasts

2005-08-06T18:46:00.000+05:30

Finally after a few days of actual incident, I came to know about it. (I read newspapers as frequently as once a month). My theories of why authority was (supposedly) taken off guard.

1. It was done by an extremely small group, some problem creators which were not terrorist. They had some grudges, or someone asked them to do it for some money and they did it. Obviously the authorities (MI5, GCHQ et al) very busy flirting with the big fishes.

2. The question was never if it will happen, but how and when. Probably they came to know about it, and allowed them to do it, while they prepared for the speedy recovery. They estimated that no. of people killed would be less and manageable unlike the 9-11, or the terrorist destroying any of their "precious" monuments.

3. The last and the most scariest one. They actually prevented the mega catastrophe by some means or the other. What took place was only a small part, and yet they are in no position to disclose how worse it could have been for the very possible mass panic, and we know how efficient govts are at disaster management. All they could was to grind their teeth and keep shut finding a way out.

5 things

2005-07-30T18:24:00.000+05:30

I am eagerly waiting for 2006. 5 reasons why...

5. I get my DL.
4. I get to control my financial sphere.
3. Windows Vista is released.
2. I will be 18.
1. I get out of my ultra-sucky college.

Mercedes-Benz Bionic

2005-07-19T21:04:00.000+05:30

Mercedes-Benz has developed new Concept CAR inspired from below Fish : The boxfish : Great rigidity and low weight - a growth principle designed by nature Despite its boxy, cube-shaped body, tropical fish is in fact is outstandingly streamlined and therefore represents an aerodynamic ideal.

Now here is the CAR :

Beep...data communique failure.

2005-07-10T18:59:00.000+05:30

One of my friends sent me this (stupid) personality defect test link. It doesn't tell if you have a personality defect. But it manages to find defect in ya in a rather nice way, as you will see...(Euphemized, yes). My result (et comments)

Robot

You are 85% Rational, 42% Extroverted, 14% Brutal, and 28% Arrogant

You are the Robot! (At this point of time, I thought maybe they are talkin sense, givin me a super human status quo). You are characterized by your rationality. In fact, this is really ALL you are characterized by. Like a cold, heartless machine, you are so logical and unemotional that you scarcely seem human. For instance, you are very humble and don't bother thinking of your own interests (callin me philanthropist? wait till you see me with a Hot Choco Fudge), you are very gentle and lack emotion, and you are also very introverted and introspective. You may have noticed that these traits are just as applicable to your laptop as they are to a human being. (Laptop? What an insult? I mean thats a different thing I would marry someone who gets me a PowerBook G5, heck I am ready to marry the G5 itself!!) In short, your personality defect is that you don't really HAVE a personality. You are one of those annoying, super-logical people that never gets upset or flustered. Unless, of course, you short circuit. (What in the world do you mean? I am so broken up, dismayed, disordered, disquieted, distressed, disturbed, dragged... )

And finally...

(notice the somewhat scrawled smile)

Im-proper

2005-07-04T11:47:00.000+05:30

War of the worlds
I see the movie. On the first Sunday after its release. The movie was very nice and every pixel of the special effect was spell binding.

However, what I am pointing out here is a clumsy "experience".

Third floor, at the Worldspace Promotional tell-the-ans. contest
"The movie, War of the Worlds is based on a novel. Who is the author of it?" This one was easy H.G. Wells. One of my friends had it and I was plannin to read it anyway.

She calls me out and asks me to repeat the answer. Then "Give the name of one more novel by H.G. Wells."

I didn't know the ans. my mates in crowd tell it out to me and I tell her. "The Time Machine". "Tell me name of one more". At this none of the people have any clue. She says she will embarrass me a little more, she will put my name in the draw if I sing a song. (embarrassed? Why would I be embarrassed? Re: Song, If I started singin' the half the odd thousand outta there would run away while the other half would run after me and kill me.)

Anyways
The thing is, I had discussed this with a school mate of mine just a day before. The name of the three novels, the story and all the stuff and how realistic could it be. For some reasons "Propers", those phone nos. dates and names refuse to make an impression my grey cells. Everything is just there but I can't recall it. It doesn't, what do you say....rebound when I need it.

Still trying to recall whom I had that conversation with... Dakota Fanning?

Wait who is that?

Life in motion

2005-07-04T11:17:00.000+05:30

"I think I should give him a call and tell him where I am"

(I put my hand in my pocket)

Damn!!

Realization : I don't have my mobile anymore. Its weird that everyday I pass that place, I look around as if I will find it. I am turning insane (as if I am sane enough now). Gotta stop doing it.

"Would you go to the fourth block?"

(The 'rick driver looks at me and signals me to get in while he chats his music away all along the way. I notice the guy has a Nokia 6800, and I feel like screaming till all my hair burns out.)

Realization : Everyone else has cell phone. They are not those cheap 3310s. Here we are talking bout n-gages and 6800s with color displays and everything in the world.

I happen to call quite a few people (except my parents and everyone one who has gates-spends-too-much-time-on-mobile thinking), to ask them if they have a spare set for a few days.
I could easily arrange for phones when my friends needed them. However, now, that I need one, everyone's phone has disappeared.

Realization : Its only when it rains in your area that all the extra umbrellas are borrowed.

Half my friends threaten me to call them up, else I will be doomed. The other half email me askin' "You nut, why are you sleepin' all the time, have you decided to sleep permanently". Keeping track of those nos. is difficult, I just can't punch those (stupid) "proper" numbers to my head. My life in motion has just turned into a nice mess.

And it perfectly complements all the mess in my room.

Angel Eyes

2005-06-25T18:59:00.000+05:30

Innocent eyes...
Originally uploaded by Gates.

Happiness, calmness, purity.
Facile emotions, intriguing depth.

"The Eyes have one language everywhere".

Bad gets worse

2005-06-19T21:45:00.000+05:30

I had a headache, cold, cough and everything I didn't want on a Sunday. Sundays are important, they come only once a week. Took some medicines when I could take it no more (I hate medicines, next to syringes and doctors).

While coming back from dinner, I could hardly think anything, except about the headache, what I should do about it - one of suggestions being eat more ice-cream.

Wham!
I fell down. I don't remember how much time I was there, or how I fell (probably I stumble on the boulder). Something was paining, my leg. I looked at it, there were no bruises, no cuts, yet the pain (as if I didn't have enough).

I thought I would call and tell someone, someone who I know wouldn't ask questions but rather get me some water, still deciding, I reached for Emily...

"What the fuck!!". Everything just swarmed in my head. I had her in my hands. I desparately looked around. 5 minutes and no sign of her.

I was in front of Accenture. I went to the security and asked officer for a flashlight. He asked me, which dept I was working for (what made him that I was even working). I explained the situation. He promptly sent a guard. As I was looking for her, several guards came and tried finding her.

Yet, I couldn't find her. Last year, 'today' she came into my life. And there she has left my life.

Don't feel like anything. I wanted to tell someone. I couldn't call the two odd nos. in my head, they were invalid or were no more in my life, just like her...

Feeling a little dizzy. I got the nos. from my online Address Book (most of them). I know I am not gettin another mobile, for its hopeless to explain my parents (whose not-so-secret desire is that I should not waste time on her) to get me another. Who said I was a human being?

Do it anyway...

2005-06-12T16:18:00.000+05:30

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered.
Forgive them anyway...

If you are kind, people may accuse you of being selfish and having ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway...

No matter who you are, you will always have some false friends, and some true enemies.
Make friends anyway...

A trust which takes years to build, may be destroyed overnight.
Trust anyway...

Even if you are honest and frank, people may cheat you.
Be honest anyway...

The good you have done today maybe forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway...

Life is a competition, with others or with ourselves.

Live it anyway...

Calvin and Hobbes

2005-06-05T18:42:00.000+05:30

Calvin and Hobbes
Originally uploaded by Gates.

I dunno why, whenever I see this picture, I can't stop myself from being happy (even if momentarily).

These are just so adorable!!!!

Untitled

2005-06-05T14:18:00.000+05:30

Forgive me,
For I am not what you see.
Everyday I wear a disguise,
Whats true, is beyond your eyes.

Fizzing Calmness,
Defines my name.
I touch every soul,
Everything seemingly in my control.

My feelings,
My stoic smile, shows nothing.
I wish you could think,
That probably I was bluffing.

I carve,
I die to be true.
I need your hand,
Even when I am scoffing at you.

I can live without you,
But please don't leave me.
To me, you mean nothing,
You are a part of me.

I notice, most of my poems are sad. They are so because, when I am happy, I am too happy to write, I can express it with something as simple as a smile.

While the reverse is not true.

Toilet in Swiss

2005-06-05T14:12:00.000+05:30

Toilet
Originally uploaded by Gates.

A public toilet in Swiss. Though glass is one way transparent, I still wonder who will use it. Just an addition to breathtaking scenes, seculded banks and yummy chocolates.

The design is par finesse...(Designed by the apple team?)

Five words that should exist

2005-05-28T19:56:00.000+05:30

1. ELBONICS
The actions of two people maneuvering for one armrest in a movie theater (the goddamn PVRs).

2. PHONESIA
The affliction of dialing a phone number and forgetting whom you were calling just as they answer.

3. TELECRASTINATION
The act of always letting the phone ring at least twice before you pick it up, even when you're only six inches away.

4.SLEEPOMANGULATION
The manhandling of an always sleeping guy. Very cruel.

5.FOOD-O-MAGLERIA
Loosing the ability to think, while eating. Only for people who can think otherwise.

Tablet PC

2005-05-28T19:20:00.000+05:30

Did you know that parents in Taiwan buy a Tablet PC and software for each of their children to use in school. I found this article. Its got a nice perspective (and in short, I want a tablet PC!!!!!)

Bitches

2005-05-22T08:22:00.000+05:30

Some female are just plain bitches
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While others are flavoured

Zzzz.....

2005-05-14T21:31:00.000+05:30

Time: 02"00 AM
Its hot. He opens his eyes, sees the fan slow
He sleeps. He does that again, and once more till he can't bear it anymore.
He curses, and gets up to speed the fan.
His feet touches the cool smooth floor...

He forgets the fan, sleeps on floor.

"Get up!!!!"

Most of the people I know have already shouted that at me a million times, and they all would tell you, how "receptive" I am while I am sleeping. Since I spend quite a long time on this, I listen to music, eat dinner and sometimes even respond to phone calls (some of my friends start with a simpler greeting, "Are you sleeping?").

I can sleep forever. It IS the best thing to do. My record has been for 14 and a half hour at a stretch. Not that I wish to extend it. Half the world is already up my head for this innocent act of mine.I sleep anywhere... Lab, chemistry class, physics class (till the teacher shakes the earth), bus, sometimes even when I am standin!

I like to sleep on a king sized bed, with pillow under my arm. Its recommended no one else sleeps on that bed before me being aware of it. The "else" often gets there under my arms instead of pillow. I often take a survey of the whole bed while sleeping, just for security purposes.

Waking me up is easy, you don't do it.
If you must, make it slow and gentle. Keeping some food nearby is helpful. Do it the other way, then you had it. You are deemed as the worst fahrbot ever born on God's green earth. Results follow.

Statutory warning: Waking me up might cause injuries to you. Extreme smooth handling recommended.

Long...longest, huh?

2005-05-07T22:13:00.000+05:30

Welcome to abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyzabcdefghijklmnop
qrstuvwxyzabcdefghijk.com

Its a valid site, which claims to give you the world's longest email address.
Its features -

People Cannot Remember your email address
Companies think that your email address is fake
Some Email Software Cannot be configured
Most Webforms Does not work with your email

And its the longest, and its the longest...ha ha ha

megagates@abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyzabcdefghijklmnop
qrstuvwxyzabcdefghijk.com (Sounds nice?)

Lets dent it.

2005-05-01T20:49:00.000+05:30

From last month, I have got a regular problem, my teeth. I still can't figure out why? I brush everyday (believe me everyday) and floss every week. What the hell. I have now (forcibly)lowered consumption of soft drinks (esp. my fav Mountain Dew) and chocolates (esp. Munch). Boooo..

Those dentist were like God to me when I was young. My cousin got braces, and were told to eat lot of ICECREAMS!!! And out came large Ice Creams and me gettin to share them (in a way of speaking, large chunks accidently happen to make way to my stomach, I still wonder how)

But look at me, I am scared to goto those white coat monsters. I am ready to bear all this, for the fear of those white bears (with a torch on their head).

Just thinking of them putting those werido lookin tools makes my stomach goes sick. Looks like some distorted rockets to me (when they touch you they do cause explosion, don't they??). They have got those rotating drills and they want to drill my teeth, my TEEEEETH!

On top of that, they intend to see everything inside usin a freakin small mirror. What if they by mistake....jeez

"Oh God, bless thy soul.
Thy shalt not dig a freakin hole.
Munch is yummy and so is Mountain Dew
I dunno why, I just can't live without the two."

Soul searching...

2005-04-24T10:16:00.000+05:30

I'm convinced that this anxiety running thru my life is the tension between what
"I should be" and what "I am". My anxiety doesn't come from thinking about the
future, but from wanting to control it. It seems to begin whenever I smuggle
into my mind an expectation about how I or others should be. It is the tension
between my desire to control the world... and the recognition that I can't.

Why do I judge my day with how much I have accomplished, instead of what
I have exprienced?

Why do we need to divide up, classify and neatly
package every new acquaintance? For me to try to classify something so complex
as a fellow human merely demonstrates my own shallowness. A judgement of another
person is an abstraction that adds qualities which are not there and leaves out
what is unique. When I classify individuals I turn them into non-living objects.
The only way for me to contact other people is to experience them, not think
about them..

Heart and the bait?

2005-04-17T16:21:00.000+05:30

I that see someone,
A silent smile on my face,
My heart beats faster,
Can it keep up the pace?

It’s not a search,
A very faint start no end,
It doesn’t follow a pattern,
And there is only one trend.

Is she the one, is she not?
Its difficult even to talk.
Has cupid struck big time?
Its no cakewalk

I am not sure what to do,
On my mind are many thoughts,
Should I express my love?
Or should I wait and watch.

I guess its better to wait,
Maybe she wont be mine
I can just hope n pray,
That one-day all will be fine.

And yes, it happens anywhere anytime,
It doesn’t wait for a season,
And like something things in life,
Love too doesn’t have a reason

And dont be surprised
Love is something I hate
Even when it knows the pain
Why the hell does the heart falls for the bait?

The Nocturnal period, a result

2005-03-13T15:29:00.000+05:30

One thing I like about you,
Is that you work with your heart, no matter what you do.
Oh ! You take so much of pain,
You can't help much when you don't have option of using your brain

I am sitting here,
wondering why am I so happy
I am discovering there is fun
Even in changing a baby's nappy

Accidents happen in a flash
Its due to driving rash,
You probably ended with just a sash
But do you realize, this accident you turn your life into hash?

I got up early
Isn't that rare?
It was a new feeling,
I could almost taste the air

Everyday girl,
Oh! she is so caring.
After slashing thru the heart, she asks
"Dear, do you need anything?"

The hardest thing I do everyday,
Is to turn and walk away.
Cant show how much you had meant to me
But you can't keep me tied, my heart is now free

There is blood and there is gore,
It pains like hell when the wounds are sore.
"Need any help?" is what they ask,
When my body is shaken right upto the core.

How can you be so cold?
Does everything need to be told?
Do you still have humility?
Or along with love, even that is sold?

Some more of my (stupid) poems. Written as late as 6AM. These days I just can't sleep before 3AM, I dunno why. Jeez, Gates seems to have become a nocturnal creature!!! (can't sleep? Surely something is wrong with me).

The Google world, adieus!

2005-03-05T16:41:00.000+05:30

I just think that Google and its people are all set to a world monopoly.

Grad students Larry Page & Sergey Brin create search engine BackRub in 1996, using a dorm room as a data center. Several years and many millions later, they renamed their company.

Its now known as Google.

Google, emerges as both a verb and a leader in online search. (Heard about "Just Google it!")
Its derived from word "Googol" which means numeral 1 followed by 100 (yes hundred) zeroes

Gmail came with storage of 1GB! (well even rediff has same capacity but no one bothers to look at it, probably because its Indian). On being questioned company stated that "Google's mission is to organize the world's information and make it universally useful and accessible." People did anything to get those few "invitations", some even getting their arms tattooed with the word Google.

Its other products - picassa 2, froogle, google desktop search are just in line. Blogger incidentally happens to be a Google innovation as well.

Whats latest it Google taking over Wikipedia. Wikipedia.org which emerged as world's (free) global encylopedia a few years ago, is in dire need of funds to keep it going. I just happend to read that google is keen to offer "help" for nothing in return. Google happend to take over Usenet as well sometime ago and collaborated the interface with Google groups, now Usenet is a non-existant entity. I personally like Wikipedia and I don't think I would like to see it as Googlopedia. I cross my fingers...

Its a small world, please don't make it smaller.

Duh.....?

2005-02-19T22:21:00.000+05:30

Found this at Tickle.com

Prashant, your Super IQ score is 103
Your overall intelligence quotient is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on how many questions you answered correctly. But it's only part of what we learned about you from your answers on the test. We also determined the way you process information.
The way you think about things makes you a Linguistic Architect. This means you are brilliant when it comes to language and words. You are also very good at understanding things on an abstract level. You are at your best when you put those two skills together to communicate new ideas and see how they fit into different contexts. You understand math and science on a gut level, even if the equations and science don't come as easily. You can use these skills to be a great communicator or to create a masterpiece.
How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Linguistic Architect? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Linguistic Architect. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.

Err...this is all fine, appears to be positive. But please, can someone tell me what this means? :-)

Vrooooom!

2005-02-19T16:51:00.000+05:30

Kawasaki
Originally uploaded by anirudh1.

Anyone presenting me one..please?